Home is where the heart is

Hey :) I am finally here in my own room on using my own laptop within my own personal space. I am finally back from my long hiatus and I am ready to roll the Petaling Jaya style. Being away from home is what I exactly needed since I found a better home :) People define home differently, as for me I found a new definition to it. Home is wherever the love of my life is. For the time being I'm torn between two places where I call home. I do not want to mention them as it is extremely obvious where the two places are. Here in Kelana Jaya and there somewhere far up in the Northern Hemisphere. There is no need of further elaboration. I reached home (Kelana Jaya) feeling rather dysfunctional and empty.

I miss my Mr.Perfect who is all the way in the United Kingdom.

I'll pause right this instance about Mr.Perfect :)

Anyways....

Reaching Malaysia, sleeping in my room, for once I felt so homesick. I have been away home so many times. God knows how homesick I felt back then. But this time it was worse! So I am still trying to cope with the so-called-lost and I have to get my life back on track. My room at the moment is messy and my new clothes I bought from my shopping spree in England are missing (in my luggage bags). Talk about being disorganized!

Tomorrow is a big day for me. I'll be receiving my final SACE results. God bless me please. I really need a high TER. Amin.

Look! It is Lame I know!

Look at my new Google Desktop! :) Did some changes and Nadia Ghazali llllliiiikkkkeeesss this! :D :D :D My time zone settings since I am sick of doing the minus 7 math! Weather so at least I know how freezing cold it is there. Current currency exchange rate, Pure FUN!!!

Will be adding moore :)

LAME I know! <3

Ring Ring!

Yes this is definitely a guilt pleasure. I am typing and in actual fact I should be writing (completing past year Physics paper). Overdue I must say, I should have finished all the questions weeks ago. :P I'll just put my mechanical pencil down for a few minutes and press the keyboard while I still have some random things to post :)

I do not exactly understand why I was so happy when I got a phone call from UK. I mean I get like calls both on my mobile and skype from UK without fail daily :) So yeah getting a phone call is not something unexpected. But still I am now all so excited I received a phone call from London :)
Hehehehehehehehhehehe Dang! I wish I was there now at this particular moment :( I envy your friends for being able to spend time with you. I also want to support you during your elections! :''''''((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

I miss you!

What if

What if I told you EVERYTHING I have ever wanted in my life is right in front of me? Like EVERYTHING! And all I have to do is to work hard to ensure I am able to keep them with me forever :) It is an extremely HUGE challenge for me and I am UP for it!

I am BACK :D

Hey people! How r u? Im back! I just felt the sudden urge to post something on my blog. :) I don't know why. My exams are drawing near and I must say I am not very prepared yet. I still have unfinished past year papers to be completed and a few more chapters of Physics, Biology and Chemistry to finish.

I maybe will have a new URL for my blog. I do not want to put it as Silent Griever anymore. I USED to be the Silent Griever but not anymore :D :D

I found my happiness for now and I hope this feeling will last forever. I do not care what other people might say out there but yes I am finally happy :) I can't say I wasn't happy before, maybe I was but not to this extent. I always yearn the feeling to wake up and feel you are so appreciated and loved. I have to admit it I never had this feeling since the day I was born. Usually, the happiness I get is temporary. Yes temporary! Or worse, when waves of depression hit me hard, it left me feeling blue for days :( or maybe even weeks. I hate it when I feel sad or worthless. I really hate that feeling. When I am sad, I feel like crying but the tears just won't fall. When I am sad, I lose weight and get really sick skinny.

But today. Shit happened to me. Not exactly to me, to someone close to me and it was all because of another person who could never stand up for the person he loves. Ever heard of the saying, the person who will hurt you the most is the closest person to you. Yeah! Believe me it is true. Positively true.

So yeah due to the incident which I am not going to elaborate, I came to a conclusion we must be with someone who loves us and will not do anything to hurt us even a single shit. I love you. EVERYONE in the whole world can say that. But do you really mean it? What if you CLAIM you love that person, but you don't express it in any form of actions. Or yeah he loves you, he kisses you but still you know deep down inside he does not love you at all! He hurts you, he does unacceptable things to you. I call that a pathetic psychopath. Come on if you love that person you would not even want to see that person cry. I have to say it is a typical Malaysian thing, to not be happy for others. So what if you love her, but if she is not happy with you. What is the point of even loving her? If you love her, you will just let her go hoping she will find her happiness elsewhere. And not to bother her again.

I believe somewhere out there is a soulmate waiting for us. Someone who will love us irrevocably. Someone who is made for us. Even if I don't meet the person now, I'll definitely meet the person in the after life. Wow! Love conquers everything right.

Love does not come from the money he showers you, or the perfect dates he brings you but from the love you actually feel from him. That is how I measure love :)

Ramadhan Updates

A week of Ramadhan has passed and I only fasted for one day. Gosh! And it seriously doesn't feel like Ramadhan since I was practically eating the whole day. Hehe.. Although, I stuffed myself with a whole load of food, I still eat a lot during Maghrib. Ppl say I mengalahkan orang yang puasa. I guess I won't be losing any weight this month. Thanks to my overeating habit. LOL!

I guess this month, August and the coming month September are months of goodbyes. :( So many people are leaving and have left too.

My niece, Aida flew off to Iowa a few weeks back and her sister will be leaving to Cardiff during raya.

Diane had safely reached Toronto. (My Panties Girl)


Dan is going to continue his studies in Hong Kong tomorrow.


Someone is going to UK soon too and leaving me here all alone :(

And the list of those flying off just doesn't end. Everyone is leaving! I want to leave Malaysia too.

I'll be leaving Malaysia soon. Hopefully la. I must get high scores! MUST!

I can't wait to fast because I think I've put on a lot of kg. I mean I eat fast foor everyday, yesterday I loaded myself with Friday's burger and today I ate good Chinese food :) And this weekend I am planning to feed myself with seafood and good BBQ. LOL! Fooood... Can't live without them.

:) :) We still have many more days to enjoy this holy month of Ramadhan :D

Voicey

I want my voice back! Thats all! I just want it back. I'm so sick of being asked who am I when someone calls me on the phone. Ppl it is me Nadia la!!! :P :P

Voice voice please come back. I really miss you for 3 weeks and all I want is just to hear you back!

I got new nicknames thanks to my new husky voice. :D

strangled chipmunk, chipmunk, orang sakit tekak (lol), weirdo, sexayh :D, husky :D, cutey, Miley Cyrus (!!!), cartoon, a girl who just reached puberty (WTF), a guy! (WTF!!) etc. Other names which I can't bear to recall.


Yikes! I almost forgotten how I sound like??